I bought a bullet journal a little while ago with the sole intention of seriously starting to get organised. I got everything set up, pretty minimalistic, did a week of to-do lists, and like usual, I just stopped and gave up - not for lack of being unorganised, but because it really isn't for me and this is my second time trying it. In fact, the only thing I like about the bullet journal is the habit tracker, and I can do that elsewhere. ANYWAYS, I started using the journal for a different purpose - journaling - funnily enough.

I've always wanted to write a journal because I absolutely love writing by hand - I started typing one once and didn't like it, but whenever I thought of physically writing it, I just assumed that I would get bored and not continue. I was also afraid that I wouldn't be able to write every day and that I would struggle to find things to talk about, but this hasn't been the case at all and I've been successfully writing every day now for 13 days.

13 DAYS OF WRITING?! 13 days of doing ANYTHING habitually?! Although this may sound like nothing to you, this is one of my biggest achievements to date. I haven't stuck at anything for this long (other than my blog) in such a long time, and for it to be something as mindful as journaling is a massive plus for me. I've been really into self-help recently, and feel that journaling has made me feel more prepared for the day.

In my journal I've been able to get troubles off my mind, clear my head and remember things that I have done. Even if I do repeat myself in the future, it doesn't matter, as I'm the only one that's able to read it at the moment. It's almost become a habit for me now as well, as the first thing I think of doing each morning, instead of sleeping in, is writing in my journal. 2 weeks ago, I would have been sleeping in until 9:30AM every day, but now I'm getting up between 7:30AM and 8AM, and I'm keen to write the thoughts that I have woken up with. Admittedly, I haven't always written it first thing in the morning due to one reason or another, but most days I've been able to do it and am so proud of myself for it.

Do you journal?

Get To Know Me


I haven't really given any information about myself so far so here's a quick get to know me survey that I found.

1. Are you named after anyone?
I think I'm named after my Nana on my Dad's side who's name was Kathleen - my real name is Kathryn!

2. When was the last time you cried?
I think it was a month ago over something really stupid, I tend to get emotional after my period. One time I got upset and cried over the fact that I couldn't do my mascara well, haha!

3. Do you have kids?

4. If you were another person, would you be a friend of yourself?
I like to think that I would be, but is that a question you can really answer because everyone likes to be liked.

5. Do you use sarcasm a lot?
Sometimes a bit too much. When I was younger my Mum used to say to me that I'm gonna say the wrong thing to somebody important, and I'm going to regret it - I'm super sarcastic and quick witted, but luckily I've been careful about who I say it to so far. Although, sometimes I do have a tendency to say things without thinking as it's just too easy sometimes.

6. What's the first thing you notice about people?
Probably hair or eyes, although I often notice shoes too which is an odd one.

7. What is your eye colour?

8. Scary movie or happy endings?
I'm gonna say happy endings, but, I enjoy films where the bad guys win for some unknown reason. I think it's because I love anything with an anti-hero.

9. Favourite smells?
Vanilla and coconut are some of my all time favourite smells. They're actually the car freshener scents that I bought the other week funnily enough - they're just so fresh and lovely and oh my god, I wanna smell them right now!

10. What's the furthest you've ever been from home?
Australia - probably the furthest there is.

11. Do you have any special talents?
I'm just me. Blergh, could I get any cheesier? I'm good at seeing the positive in everything, does that count?

12. Where were you born?
Welwyn Garden City in Hertfordshire, England.

13. What are your hobbies?
I enjoy reading, watching rugby, blogging and working on my makeup business (if you can count that).

14. Do you have any pets?

15. Do you have any siblings?
Nope, I'm an only child, and no, that doesn't mean that I'm spoiled.

16. What do you want to be when you grow up?
I want to be happy. I enjoy working my makeup business and want that to thrive in the future but I wouldn't be doing it and pursuing it in the first place if it didn't make me happy. I'm the kind of person that would rather be poor and happy than rich and sad.

17. Who was your first best friend?
Robyn. She used to be my neighbour when we were kids and I've known her pretty much all of my life which is amazing if you think about it.

18. How tall are you?
5'1" or 155cm

19. Funniest moment throughout school?
I'm gonna be really shit with this question as this could be a good one for an awesome anecdote, but nothing is really coming to mind at all, unfortunately. I don't like being put under pressure dammit, haha!

20. How many countries have I visited?
When I was at school, I was known as the holiday girl because my parents and I would always have at least 2 holidays a year to really random locations that nobody would ever think of going to. I am so grateful that I was able to do that when I was younger, and then I ended up going travelling around Australia and New Zealand for 2 years in 2014 as well. I wouldn't be able to give you a number though unfortunately but could list a few for you: Vietnam, China, Mexico, Tunisia, Thailand, Cyprus, Greece, to name but a few.

21. What was your favourite/worst subject in high school?
My favourite subjects were anything creative (other than English) like drama, art and graphic design. I've just always been an extremely creative person and definitely not academic in the slightest. I would always do amazingly well at physical coursework and then do worse in the exams because my brain just couldn't retain the information. I am a physical learner rather than a wordy learner in the way that I like to be hands-on rather than read loads of information. My worst subject, however, was probably science as I had absolutely NO interest in it whatsoever, and I don't think, at 26, I've ever had to use it in my life either.

22. What is your favourite drink? Animal? Perfume?
Iced coffee by a country mile. Although, we don't have decent iced coffee in England, I miss the Australian ones, they were addictive. I love koalas after visiting Australia, they're so cute and cuddly, but their looks are deceiving as they can be quite dangerous. I don't really wear perfume at all really though.

23. What would you name your children?
I don't want to think about this for a while, I know I prefer girls names, but obviously, that wouldn't be my choice.

24. What sports do you play/have you played?

25. Who are some of your favourite YouTubers?
I like a lot of YouTubers, but at the moment I've been absolutely loving Lucy Moon, I just find her so relatable and interesting. She talks about anything and everything but is also so keen to grow and learn which I find so refreshing - and as she's growing in popularity you can see her advance but she's still staying true to herself.

26. How many boyfriends have you had?

27. Favourite memory from your childhood?
As mentioned before, it probably has to be the holidays that I went on when I was younger. We always had one in the Easter holidays which was a touring holiday and a relaxing holiday in the Summer so we always had the best of both worlds.

28. How would you describe your fashion sense?
I wouldn't really describe it as anything, I like what I like, and I wear what I like. Although, one thing that I do always wear is florals, but that doesn't necessarily mean I'm ridiculously girly. When my best friend was organising her wedding she said that she didn't know what kind of bridesmaid dresses to get because we all liked different things, and she said that I liked florals. That was the day that I realised that I do tend to go for flowery prints!

29. What phone do you have?
Rose gold iPhone 6S

30. Tell us one of your bad habits!
I bite the skin around my fingers, and it'll be the death of me because I'm always complaining about how shit my nails are!

Would you do this survey?

So Far In May


It's coming towards the end of the month, and although I've got a ton of ideas for blog posts written down, none of them are really speaking to me right now - so I'll just give you a little bit of an update on where I'm at now instead.

I am SUPER proud of myself right now, as one of the main things that I wanted to do this month was to get into good habits, and I can successfully say that I am on my way there. I've been pretty much getting up between 7:30AM and 8:00AM every day, I've started journalling (I've now done a solid week now), I've been working on my makeup business consistently, and I've kept up with blogging every other day on here. These things are an absolutely MASSIVE achievement for me, and I'm not ashamed in the slightest to shout from the rooftops about how happy and proud I am with myself.

As I've mentioned before, I've never been able to stick at things for long periods of time, so I knew that this would be a challenge for me. I started the month off by saying I would blog every other day, which was my first real habit, and when I started getting on really well with that, I added little things as I was going on. I know this sounds really weird, but for me to create habits I need to force myself to do something - it sounds super counterintuitive, I know! When I force myself to do something that I enjoy, I eventually start to remember why I enjoyed it in the first place and then willingly start doing it and loving it. It works for me, and that's all that matters!

May is definitely becoming a month of finding what really matters to me and one of self-appreciation, as I've been extremely hard on myself in the past months. If I didn't do something to the perfectionist way that I wanted it done, then I deemed myself a failure, when really, success is not built on success, it's built on failure - in order to succeed you need to trip, get back up and try again!

Other things have happened this month, but this is by far the most important thing to me, so I wanted to share. I'm just so happy right now and I want to spread a little bit of happiness around to everyone - there's plenty to go around!

My First Date


So we were in this 5 star Michelin style restaurant; we had champagne, a selection of au d'oeuvres, caviar and an absolutely glorious lobster dish. All throughout this experience, a talented violinist was serenading us with some of my favourite songs....

Haha, well....I don't really wish that ever happened because that's way too fancy for my likings - I'm a simple girl. I do, however, wish my first date went a little more smoothly than it did. I remember it like it was yesterday, but not for the reasons you may think - it was just incredibly awkward for me.

First things first, I met my date on a really drunken night out; I'd been texting him throughout the week, I had one blurry picture of him, but I just still couldn't really remember what he looked like. I was actually more scared than anything that we wouldn't recognise each other.

So, as it turns out, I did recognise him, and we proceeded to go to Nando's. We had dinner and the conversation was okay I guess; I was a little nervous, what with it being my first date and all, so maybe the conversation could have flowed a little better. We had a lot of awkward silences and I kept feeling that everyone around us was having a good time and could see that we weren't really that comfortable with each other yet.

Next, we went to the cinema to see Avatar in 3D - I'll add this in now, don't go on a first date to the cinema with anybody. You can't get to know your date and you're literally just sitting there for 2 hours doing nothing but watching a movie. 

Anyways, back to the story, and here comes the incredibly awkward part. I was really naive back in the day (some would say I'm still the same) and had no idea on cinema courtesy or if there even was any, and I feel as though my date felt the same way. I was like, shall we talk a bit? Shall we hold hands? Oh my god is he gonna do the yawn and slip his arm over my shoulders move?

I'm cringing SO hard when writing this. I put my hand on the arm of my seat next to his, palm up, to kind of hint that I wanted him to hold my hand. He eventually did after a little bit, but then neither of us knew whether to keep holding on (for what seemed like dear life) or to let go. My hand was getting sweaty, my wrist was beginning to ache, I wanted to fidget in my seat, and I didn't know what to do. We spent a large part of the film, which is almost 3 hours, awkwardly holding hands in this way.

Funnily enough we did eventually ending up going out, but it didn't last long. I'm just glad I got that date out of the way early. 

Can you remember your first date?

Gratitude Journal #1


I feel as though gratitude is a very mindful thing, it can help ground you when you feel overwhelmed, and help you to see the bigger picture. You should always be grateful for the big and the little things in life, and I just wanted to document things that I'm grateful for, as and when.

Being able to live cheaply at home
Although I do want to move out as soon as possible, I am extremely grateful that my parents have allowed me to stay relatively cheaply at home. I'm not living here rent free, but it's definitely a lot cheaper than it would have been if I was renting a flat or something. Living here cheaply gives me the freedom to use the rest of my money a bit more freely (although I never go mad), so I don't have to worry so much as to when the next paycheque is going to come through.

Having a good shift work job
To some people, having shift work is a dreaded thing, but I think a lot of people think of it as always being really late night shifts that end at 6 in the morning. I work in a pub, so the latest I get out is possibly 2am (ish), but it means I have the whole day before work in order to get some of my personal projects done. I have plenty of time to work on myself before/after I work depending on whether I'm on a day or evening shift.

☼ Actually enjoying my job
I actually really love my job and wouldn't change it for the world. Obviously, I want to work my makeup business full time in the future, but for now, I really enjoy working in the hospitality trade in a social environment. A lot of people spend their lives in a job that they despise, just because it pays the bills, but I don't ever want to be like that and I'm extremely grateful that that isn't the situation I'm in right now.

☼ Welcoming family
I went up to Norwich to visit my Nana last weekend, and I'm so happy that I did because I haven't seen her since Christmas. I don't like the fact that I don't normally see her, or other family members other than my parents, once a year at Christmas. I've got a relatively small close family and it's always lovely to be able to meet up outside of the holidays.

☼ My lovely red motor
I'm extremely grateful to have my little red car now. It's given me so much independence, and has generally made life easier for me, as I can just get in my car and go wherever I want, whenever I want, rather than relying on my parents or the dreaded public transport. I even drove up to Norwich (as mentioned above) for the first time by myself, which was my first "long haul" drive - it was really tiring but I'm so glad that I did it.

What are you grateful for?

Uplifting Others


So many people put down people for taking selfies all the time - they call them vain, self-obsessed, not even pretty, and any number of other insulting things. Whatever happened to being nice to one another? I believe the online age we currently live in has given people a platform to hide behind to drag people down, and it's not good.

Everyone nowadays thinks they have a right to tell others what they think of them, not in real life, but over social media (which is the worst part). They think they're entitled to tell someone that they looked better without makeup, they shouldn't wear those shorts, or ask why someone takes so many pictures of themselves. The answer is why not? Why shouldn't people wear what they want? Why shouldn't people put as much makeup on as they want? Why should you conform to societies "standards" just to fit in? Everyone is different, everyone is unique, and everyone has their own reasons for doing these things.

Makeup is a big example for me because I own a makeup business, so am constantly posting pictures of myself wearing makeup, before and afters, etc. Due to this, I see a lot of other makeup related photos and videos coming up on my feed where people are, again, giving their opinions. People wear makeup for any number of reasons - for some it gives them confidence, it may cover up scars they're insecure about, or they just bloody well feel like wearing it.

We should be uplifting others instead of tearing them down, as you don't know what place someone is in when you send that unwanted comment; it could be the last straw for them and you would never know. They say that "stick and stones will break my bones but words will never hurt me", but I'm calling bullshit on that one because words HURT! The simplest thing can make or break someone's day, so why not make it and uplift them by saying something positive to them instead.

There are so many bigger problems going on in the world right now compared to whether you think someone looks good in makeup or not! So why not take a stand against the shit that's happening in the world right now and be positive to one another. Neither party gains by that negative remark you just made, but it can make you and the receiver feel better about yourselves if you just take the time to be positive and make a difference. It's the little things that count...

What are your thoughts on this?

Things People Say In Pubs


I work in a pub. Who would have guessed by the title of this post hey? As with working in any hospitality trade, you have to deal with customers. Some are good, some are bad, and it's all part of the territory. I wouldn't change it for the world, but some people do say some things that get right up my nose. I'm always nice and polite to customers, but these are the super sarcastic thoughts that run through my head a lot in response to some of the things customers often say...

"Can I have a wine?"
Do you want to go into any specifics on that like red, white or rosé? Or am I a bartender/psychic now?

Me: "Hey, how're you?" Customer: "Can I have..."
Yeah, that's fine, I'm not a human being, just a server of drinks. Don't be polite and at least say "hello" or anything!

"I want to order food but there are no more tables..."
...and you expect me to do what about it? I can't just magic up some tables out of thin air for you. I'm sorry there's none available, but be serious, what am I supposed to do?

Me: "Would you like the small fish and chips or the main one?" Customer: "I'll have the regular size"
I just told you what sizes we have available...there are no "regular" sizes, they're all regular!

12AM on a Friday Night: "Can I have a coffee?"

Me: "How was your food" Customer: "It was really bad....just kidding, it was great"
So you just made me slightly panic for no reason other than your own amusement, how is that even funny? It's a genuine concern about how your food is just in case you do want to make a complaint.

"Can I have a <insert drink we don't have>?"
Did you not think to look before you ordered? Do you know why you shouldn't assume?

"That's a bit expensive"
I just press the buttons and tell you the price, mate!

Two customers arguing over who's paying
Can ONE of you just please give me some money so I can get on with other stuff that needs to be done!

Have you ever been on the receiving end of any of these?